Wednesday, February 8, 2012

So far, so good!

Well, I did my first weigh in yesterday since I started on this whole journey and woo hoo - I am down 2.5 lbs! Not really sure how that happened after the mass load of bad food I ate Super Bowl Sunday! But hey, I'll take it! So one of the hardest things for me is menu planning... 9 times out of 10 I sit at the computer searching for things to make for dinner (healthy options) and I usually get frustrated and give up, but something got into me yesterday, maybe it was the good mood I was in after weighing myself?? But, I wrote up a menu plan for the whole freakin month - woot woot! And it's all relatively healthy stuff (ww recipes, pinterest healthy recipes, stuff from skinny taste, etc). Here's a sampling of our meals this week:

Wed - grilled chicken salad with lots of veggies and hard boiled egg for extra protein
Thurs - turkey spaghetti with zuccini and squash (maybe add some spinach and/or kale too??)
Friday - Shake n Bake pork chops and corn
Saturday - WW Shepard's Pie (never had this before, hope it's good!)
Sunday - Chicken tortilla soup

*we eat leftovers for lunch

I've been pretty good about working out too. After my workout yesterday, I was all ready to hop on the treadmill and start the c25k running program, but when I got my phone to get some tuneage goin, I saw that I had 6 missed calls and a text that Mr. Max had a fever and I needed to go get him from MDO, wah wah wah :( So... I guess the c25k will have to wait. Jason is working at the office today, so it won't be happening today either, but def tomorrow!

BTW - Max is fine, but the MDO people did a good job of totally freaking me out! They told me that he wasn't acting himself, and that he had a slight fever and get this... had a couple "tremors" - what the hell does that mean?? Of course, the follow that up with a comforting, "No to freak you out or anything, but you may want to watch him" - really?! Well no sh!t! Max has never had a "tremor" before, so I'm not sure what they are talking about?? When we came home, he was totally fine, happy, took a good nap, ate great, so... yeah. In other news, Emma is recovering very well from her face plant into the coffee table. Her lip is no longer swollen, and her cuts are all but healed - thank goodness! She is one tough cookie!

In other news, Jason's offical "start date" as a full time (no longer contract) employee at Bank of America will be Feb. 21st! So proud of him! He works so hard to provide for our family and I feel incredibly blessed that the Lord has provided for us and allowed me to be able to stay home with my babies, even if some days I would rather be far, far away from them! Please tell me I am not the only horrible mother who doesn't want to be around their kids! I gotta tell ya, it's def not always sunshine and rainbows, and who ever tells you that it is, is LYING! I swear, I really don't know where they get the incredible amount of energy that they have, other than completely sucking it out of me! Oh, before I forget, does anyone have any advice on how to get the little hellians to stop banging on the tv? Or to stop throwing food on the floor? Apparently, they live in opposite world, where no means, yes, hit the tv some more! yes, thorw your food on the floor so you can eat it like a dog later! Ay de mi! Isn't parenting fun?! But, then there are the moments like yesterday, when for no reason, Emma went up to her brother, gave him a kiss on the head and then gave him a hug - so precious! Anywho... I have got to get this laundry done! Please tell me I am not the only one who has left clothes in the washing machine for 2 days and had to wash it yet again - ugh! I will defeat the laundry today!

Happy hump day everyone!

Friday, February 3, 2012

Here goes somethin'...

So, I really debated writing about this and putting it out there for all to see, but I figured it would only make me more accountable, so here it goes...

For the first time in my life, I am "overweight". Since having the babies, I have struggled to get back to my pre-pregnancy/pre-fertility meds weight of about 130 (which even then I wished I were 10 pounds lighter). When I was pregnant, I was pretty much "all baby", or in my case “babies” as they say, and ironically, my struggle was to gain the amount of weight suggested for twin pregnancies. Once I was home from the hospital, I weighed myself and was only 8 pounds more than pre-pregnancy, so I excitedly thought that with breastfeeding, this whole baby weight thing would be a cinch... hmm not so much. I was stuck at that 8 pounds for a while (148 pounds to be exact). Then, about 6-8 months go by and that 8 pounds turned into 10 :( Granted I really wasn't doing ANYTHING to lose the weight (as I was breastfeeding and didn't want to disrupt what little breastmilk I was able to produce). So here I am, almost 15 months later and I am sitting at a depressing 149 pounds. I should also mention that several months ago, I found out I had post-pregnancy hypothyroidism (apparently it's somewhat common, but it usually goes away, but in true Candice fashion, that was not the case for me - awesome). This helped explain A LOT! It explained why I had slowly been gaining weight, why I wasn't producing enough breastmilk, why I was tired all the time (aside from the whole 2 babies thing), etc. So, I have been taking thyroid meds now since August (I think?) and as of my last labs (12/5) - I'm still not quite in the normal range (shocking, I know!), but I almost am! Normal range is between .35 and 5.4 and my most recent level was almost a 7. My doctor upped my thyroid meds and I am about to embark on my personal weight loss journey. I'm scared and a little overwhelmed, not knowing what to expect... I am COMPLETELY out of shape, and let's face it, I love food, especially all the bad stuff that one should stay away from when trying to lose weight (ie: bread, pasta, cookies, pizza, etc). But, like I said before, I've never had to count calories, diet, or watch what I eat - so I'm freaking out a little and worried that this is really going to suck!

My first step in this journey was getting signed up at a gym. Well, honestly I've always been signed up at a gym; I guess I should rephrase this by saying "start actually GOING to the gym". I canceled my membership at the regular gym (the one I have been donating money to for some time now), and enrolled at a place down the street called Private Workout. It's a 30 min circuit training workout that uses weights. I have not been very consistent about going, but starting Monday (I know, I know everyone always says starting Monday, but I really mean it!) I will start going as many days a week as I can (shooting for 5-6 days). It's pretty neat actually, they have this incentive program where you don't have to pay an enrollment fee, but rather you sign a goal contract where you list what your goal BMI/weight is, and they give you 150 workouts to reach your goal (no timeframe is specified), and if you give up, then you have to pay the fee, if you reach your goals in 150 workouts, then you get a lifetime free membership - pretty sweet deal. I am 20 workouts in, but I'm pretty sure you only see results if you go consistently, instead of the 0, 1, 2, or sometimes 3 times a week I had been going. Pretty sure I've already said this, but let me reiterate how incredibly out of shape I am! I'm pretty positive that if I had to run for my life, that I would most certainly die!

Step two of my master plan, is to start a running/jogging routine (hopefully with the babies in the mornings) and try to build up to 3 miles so that I can run in my first 5K - I totally suck at running, so we'll see how this goes. I guess everyone has to start somewhere, right? I am also going to start doing some yoga 2-3 times a week. This I plan to do *at home* for a couple of reasons 1) My physical therapist told me I had to (not the at home part, but the yoga part 2) I am sooooo not flexible and would rather not embarrass myself in public 3) there apparently aren't any yoga studios around me expect for the Bikram yoga place, which I wish I could do, but since I tend to pass out in the heat, especially when working out (stupid vasovagal syncope), I should probably stay away from doing yoga in 95 degree heat 4) it's freakin expensive yo! Soooo, I bought some highly recommended dvds from amazon and plan to start that up as soon as they arrive. Did I mention that it's also a good excuse to wear my yoga pants all day?! Anywhoo... it's probably overkill, but I also REALLY want to do the 30 day shred. I attempted this about 6 months ago (before finding out about the thyroid issue) and can I just tell you, I couldn't even get through the first 10 minutes of the 30 minute workout - LAME! So, I may wait a few weeks to start this one, so I don't completely set myself up to fail!

Now that I think about it, I guess step 1 and 2 really should be combined, but whatever.

Step 3 (or 2?): Jason and I have officially registered for Weight Watchers online. I just did this a few hours ago, but in my brief browsing of their website, I was a little bummed that they didn't have a meal planning feature, at least not that I found, as that seems to be my biggest battle everyday... the elusive "what are we going to have for dinner" conundrum - I hate it! I'll admit it, I'm a little picky, and I'm not the biggest fan of veggies, so this may be the hardest transition. I will gladly take and try anyone's favorite "healthy" meals, as most things in my rotation are probably not weight watcher friendly (ahem, lasagna, Chinese food, pasta, etc). I guess one thing that is working in my favor is that I am not much of a grazer/snacker, maybe b/c I was a teacher for so long and you don't really have that luxury, but I am def more in the 3 squares a day camp, of course I do indulge occasionally in the good 'ol 2:30 snack attack. I started looking through the recipe index on the WW website and immediately became overwhelmed, unfamiliar with most of the stuff I was reading and a sense of regret poured over me, and I went and crawled into bed feeling defeated already - and I haven't even started. So, yeah - this should be fun. I'm trying to keep a good attitude about it, and tell myself that I don't have to been all hard core weight watcher person, and that as long as I eat healthier (more veggies), practice portion control, and try to stay under 1200-1300 calories a day, I should be ok - everything in moderation, right?!

So yeah... there it is. Here are some of my goals (I need to make some short term goals, but here's what I hope to get out of all of this):
-Get back to 120-125 lbs (need to lose 25-30 lbs)
-Get back to a size 4 (currently an 8)
-Run a 5K (and eventually a half marathon)
-Be a model of healthy eating and fitness for my kids (which currently my kids eat waaaayyy better than me, but I know at some point they will catch on that mommy doesn't eat like they do)
-Just feel better
-Look good naked again and in a bathing suit (yeah I said it)
Sooo... hopefully between the health/weight/fitness transformation and the debt elimination transformation, I am really excited to see what the next couple of months has in store for us. Please pray that I am able to stay the course and follow through. Here goes somethin'!